I was asked yesterday by a follower 2 great questions: 1.) What was the best part of my day? & 2.) How I knew I was the #avoidant type & how I was learning to heal myself so I could be a good partner because she was struggling.
Girrrrrrrl sit down đđŞ
If only a CT scan could tell me what I needed to do to fix this brainđ§
So…
1.) Best part of my day: getting to FaceTime with @_rottier_ đşđ¸đđťđŻđľ
2.) This is gonna be long. Youâve been warned. But I donât wanna leave anything out. Iâm going to repost these on my blog site (link in bio) so theyâre easier to read.
I donât think it was until this year I realized MY FAULTS in pushing people away that were trying really hard to love me.
I viewed it as being smothered. A breach of my boundaries. Iâm an introvert by nature & value my privacy & alone time.
There were definite differences, but a lot of it was just them wanting to be a part of my life & I was allowing myself to feel overwhelm, detachment, & fear of getting too âcloseâ & having my heart broken.
I donât like depending on people or showing weakness.
When I finally started doing the inner work to attract the right kind of partner & life I wanted, I got what I asked for.
However, the Universe has a funny way of testing you to see where youâre weak & still need work.
Things I learned thru therapy:
âĄď¸The avoidant attachment type shows up as independent & self reliant.
âĄď¸They guard themselves when people get close, safety is not found in other people.
âĄď¸They emotionally distance.
âĄď¸Non committal, they feel overwhelmed & uneasy about healthy stable love.
âĄď¸Difficulty trusting others & asking for help.
âĄď¸Think too much & subconsciously sabotage relationships.
âĄď¸Females tend to be more âmasculineâ in nature (Tom boy, strong independent, ârough around the edgesâ)
It was suggested to me to trial dating apps to sort thru emotions about a relationship. To help gain clarity on my true wants & needs.
They said if it feels icky or heavy or misaligned â um it is. đ And thatâs exactly what I felt. Ew.
I had no desire for the riff raff. Those were quickly disposed & deleted.
List to your gut. Itâs never wrong.
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1. Allow others to do some things you would normally do yourself. Makes me uncomfortable af. But Iâm learning itâs okay to rely on people.
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2. Slow down when experiencing overwhelm & stress. If you need a break, communicate it. Donât hold it in until it becomes resentment.
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3.) Get real with yourself. Feel the feels & note how you want to FEEL in a relationship.
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4. Work on setting boundaries before reaching the point of pushing people away & emotionally distancing.
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5.) Work on identifying & communicating your thoughts & feelings. Donât be afraid to cry. Learn to be more vulnerable in SAFE relationships.
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6.) Look for the positive qualities in yourself, others & your relationships. Remember that thing about thoughts become things & the grass is greener where you water it?
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7.) If youâre about to become ârunaway brideâ & wanna run or GTFO â time out. Make a pros & cons list. Consider the potential benefits of staying. Make sure itâs in alignment with you.
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8.) When you’re taking time to yourself, communicate more effectively & show appreciation for the other. Example: âI need space for myself so I can be my best self for you. I appreciate your patience & I care.â
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I feel the moment you get to the place where you feel at peace & at home with yourself is the moment before the relationship you always wanted shows up in your life.
It can a new one or maybe a new & improved one.
For me the healing of relationships & the world is always the healing of ourselves.
Are you a recovering avoidant like me?