body building – lil bit of fit

5 years ago, I wrote a journal entry about my ongoing struggle with binge eating & unhealthy addiction to exercise.

I detailed longstanding struggle with my seemingly endless appetite & f*cked up addiction to stuffing huge amounts of food in my face, struggling with gut flares & drowning in a black cloud of self loathing & frustration.

I had no “cures” as of yet, but I was now out of the closet getting REAL with living in a haunted house.

Since writing that entry, I created a community here simply sharing my life in hopes of helping others living a similar nightmare. I’ve received dozens of messages asking about my journey of recovery from disordered eating, poor body image, food addiction, orthorexia, & Crohn’s disease.

Living 3 decades with these devils on my shoulders, I’ve learned much about these demons that used to haunt me.

After going “carnivore” with my diet & changing my perspective on health & fitness, I never binge & am healthier than ever at 40 years old. I want the same for you.

How did I crack the code?

Well, first, I stopped looking outside myself for solutions, online & advice from friends, doctors, & latest fads. Instead, I decided to compassionately look inward & get curious on what life & fitness meant to me.

I started observing myself to understand why I behaved. I found without exception, I binged in response to 3 different situations that left me hungry physically & mentally:

When “restricting” & trying to eat like everyone else instead of ME
When avoiding an emotion or lacking purpose
When neglecting my own pleasure & needs

My priorities now are: Great food in the form of animal based nutrition — quality sleep & exercise — simple joy & peace.

I don’t categorize dieting & working out as a daily must-do activity anymore. I’ve learned to consider lifestyle a choice I love, not a chore.

A CHAMPION means to be someone that loves the work of becoming one more than the idea of becoming one.