I didn’t dare talk about it much publicly when I was younger, I used to binge eat — A LOT. It didn’t help my health, gut, performance, or fat loss goals at all either. I was scared to strength train because I have no idea where to start.
Binging happened mostly when I was lonely, stressed, or bored. Sometimes, it would happen when I was celebrating, too — but always when I was alone. I would go to the store, buy junk food, then go home or sit in my car & eat as much as I could. I was an addict, food was my drug, & binging was a high.
I’d eat until I didn’t think I could eat another bite, & then felt so sick I’d puke to “undo” what I”d done. Sometimes even after I threw up, I’d wait a while, & when the feelings of nausea started to subside, I’d start eating again until either the food was gone, I vomited, or until I went to bed in deep shameful sleep.
Without fail, I’d wake up feeling like absolute shit the next day. I’d beat myself up, forcing an unending spiral of guilt, restriction, & punishment. My gut flares out of control!
To make myself feel even worse, I’d look in the mirror & tell myself how terrible I looked, & that I would never be good enough until I could stop eating & got as thin as I could. That if only I could somehow turn myself into one of those people who just “forgets” to eat, then I’d finally be good enough.
But that was the wrong approach. Obviously.
I took the time to look deeper into my behaviors & habits, I started to be kinder to myself & feel empathy.
Back then, I didn’t treat food as fuel & workouts as a celebration of my body as I do now.
So if you deal with binge eating or know someone who does, or don’t know where to start on your fitness journey 👉know that you’re not alone.
Here’s your reminder you CAN!
I’m over 3 years meat-based with my diet! It serves my autoimmune, physical & emotional needs!
Here’s to a lifetime of living vibrationally & giving myself what I deserve.
I wish the same for you too!
Can you relate to my story?
oxox Coach K #fitnessjourney #crohnsdisease #weightlosstransformation #bingeeatingrecovery
