purpose – lil bit of fit

She told me I really have no idea my purpose or where I fit in.

To anyone who has struggled with this question, I feel your emotions to my core.

Some of my painful realizations that may help you too:

👉🏻I love entrepreneurship but I’m a really shxtty number 1 person when it comes to running a business. I’m a GREAT connection maker & number 2!

Learned this coaching nutrition full time at one point & managing a sales territory for an online meal prep company.

I have gifts I’m naturally good at. Im a responder by nature, not an initiator. Great idea thinker. I’m phenomenal at reading people & the energy in a room — which makes me good at connecting with emotions.

I loathe being ‘salesy’ & feeling like I HAVE to make sales for my livelihood. I lose the love for it and build resentment.

The thought of cold calls make me CRINGE. I also HATE luke warm small talk. Give me a hot lead, give me something to respond to & I’ll close the deal 99% of the time.

Taking on a high volume of clients takes a huge toll on my energy. I had to learn to scale & balance my loves of healthcare & coaching to create a positive, abundant, & safe environment to cultivate a lifestyle I loved without losing my shxt.

I felt ashamed & embarrassed to own this for years. Felt it made me a “failure”

I enjoy working as a team & for other people. I need direction but enough freedom to not feel caged in. That’s the sweet spot where I thrive.

It hurts. It’s painful to go through these experiences, but let me remind you the roads less traveled lead you to some of the most important people & places you’re meant to be.

My 1st job ever was working on my family farm.

2nd was working as an animal science lab assistant at Purdue.

3rd was a vet tech.

4th was a well-paying job with a

pharmaceutical company.

—I hated it.

I made the decision my happiness was worth more than a paycheck.

Turned out to be one of the best decisions of my life. I met my 2nd love — healthcare. My 1st will always & forever be agriculture.

Guess what?

Still dunno wtf I’m doin or where I’m goin. One thing is for dxmn sure my life is never boring😂

It’s OK to not know.

It’s NOT OK to settle for mediocrity.

Don’t be afraid to take risks & take the path less traveled.

I’d love to hear your stories!!!🤗👇🏻

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I sat my plant children out on the patio this morning before CrossFit & work for some sun & fresh air. I feel they’re happier when they get some time out.

I named them all. This is one of my new ones, her name is Maggie.

It takes some time setting them all out & gets my patio messy. But they’re worth it. They make me happy when I see them when I come home. Like Pete 🐈, he runs to the door when I get there. Even though he eats all my succulents & opens cabinets & drawers — making a mess.

Your message is in your mess.

Healing is messy. Life is messy. There’s not a template for it.

Some hard things I’ve learned are first loves or fierce loves don’t always mean the best loves. Stable, loyal loves are timeless. And sometimes the relationship we need to work on for another is the one with yourself.

Best friends don’t always mean friends forever.

Money is energy & like a relationship too. It deserves to be appreciated, honored, & used for good. It comes & goes like everything else in life.

One thing they all mean no matter what the outcome, however, is someone at sometime — cared. And that’s worth it.

I have good & not so good days. I have days I feel like a rock star & other days I feel like an a$$hat.

Some days I reminisce on what I could’ve done differently to change the outcomes & other days I feel like I’m living my best life.

I have moments of heart break — a mistake you made you wish you could change, hearing a song that pours salt in a wound, a scent that brings back a certain place in time, the sight of a picture, the feel of an old sweatshirt or shirt that makes you smile & cry in both appreciation & mourning of a relationship or memory.

Through it all remember that you’re human. And you’re messy.

Feel the feels.

Take the time you need to begin again.

And thank God for things you prayed for that you didn’t get. You wouldn’t be the person you are today.

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I’d love to hear how y’all are doing🌻👇🏻

Xoxo

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Struggling to Find Your Purpose — Take The Roads Less Traveled

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