Here’s to closing another chapter & 39 years with nothing figured out yet 😆🥂
Tomorrow is the last day in the apartment I scared myself sh*tless moving into.
I drained my bank account to $5 to move in & this home quickly became the one I’ve grown the most in…
I didn’t know how I was going to make rent but I was done living less than I deserve.
2.5 yrs later…
I worked my azz off. I move tomorrow just down the street. I payed 3 grand to get moved in this time & didn’t bat an eye.
I still have a lot of growing & learning to do.
I still have so many goals & life experiences I want to achieve & savor.
Some things will probably never change…
I still shower with a shower cap. Not washing my hair is a sport I have mastered.
Pete 🐈⬛ 🚿 will still sit on the side of the tub in between the curtains.
I will still yell at him every day for throwing up all over the place.
I will still smile every time I walk thru the door to him standing there & walking down the hall to find he’s opened half of my cabinets.🤦🏼♀️🚪
My place will still smell like freshly cooked meat in the airfryer & @scentsy mystery man. Meat & men’s cologne, yum 😋😂
I’ll still lay my clothes out for the next day.
I’ll still be an early bird like my dad.
I’ll still get my best ideas when I’m drunk, working out, coloring, fishin, or in the shower.
I’ll still hate wearing underwear & love living bralettes.
I’ll still change my mind all the time.
I’ll still be a more introverted extrovert.
I’ll still be obsessed with @morganwallen @nelly @postmalone @saintjhn & @thegr8khalid
I’ll still be rough enough around the edges to keep things interesting but polished enough to get the job done when I have to😉
I’m not afraid to admit there are a lot of things I still have not mastered nor do I know exactly what I’m doing or where I’m going…
…but I know & trust I always end up where I’m meant to be.
Change is hard. Closure is hard. New beginnings are scary & EXCITING at the same time.
So if you’re struggling right now, know this, I too have been that human who:
◽️chose the cheapest apartment living paycheck to paycheck
◽️divorced twice & wondering if there is something wrong with her
◽️had her car repoed, $40,000+ in debt, $5 to her name, basically living out of her office & car, eating at hotels to save money on food
◽️is sick, struggling with Crohns, disordered eating & orthorexia feeling powerless & ugly
▫️is comparing, wanting to be someone else, coveting their life &/or body thinking that would make her happy
◽️sees “single” as a dirty word & feels the need to settle instead of realizing she needed to be the person she wanted to be with first
▫️insert whatever ya want here _____.
MOOD: boss moves & leveling up ✌️
I’m proud as hxll of this almost 40 somethin self.
Hi five to all my brothers & sisters out there jus tryna to be the best versions of themselves, scared sh*tless too! You got this. #mindsetmonday