disordered eating recovery – Page 2

June 17, 2022

What it’s like living with body dysmorphia

I’ve struggled with body dysmorphia, orthorexia & disordered eating. ⁣
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Swipe for some things you may relate to like I did.⁣
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Lately I’ve been experimenting, reflecting, & redefining what “beauty” & physical beauty mean to me.⁣
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At 40, beauty is a feeling & state of being that becomes from knowing I’m listening to, honoring & taking really good care of myself.⁣
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In my teens, 20’s, & early 30’s beauty meant a certain size, weight, body fat %, barbell PR, & things like how many compliments I got about how I looked…⁣
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Beauty encompasses the whole body & soul. ⁣
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To me, beauty also has a visual, aesthetic element too (if you want that to be part of your definition) that includes who I want to embody AND see in the mirror. ⁣
How do I want to feel? ⁣
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For me, the emotions around my body & mind were the pivotal helping or hindering factors on redefining the identity & relationship with my body AND other people. ⁣
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Going carnivore significantly healed my gut issues & relationship with food.⁣
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Life dramatically improves when you simply honor yourself & stop trying to fit into somebody’s box. ⁣
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As for other people, life dramatically improves when you start seeing people for who they truly are & what they show you instead of romanticizing about what they could be. ⁣
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If some of these sound like you, know you’re not alone. Things won’t get better until you really “do the work” & that starts from within.⁣
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Sending love & hugs 🤗

lilbitoffit katie kelly indiana — Hailing from Fishers, Indiana, Katie is an aficionado of health, mindset, human connection, & entrepreneurship. Writer, speaker, doer of many things, she grew up on her family’s beef cattle & crop farm where agriculture was her first love. She is a Purdue University graduate well known for her storytelling of life lessons & personal transformation through her own relationships, Crohn’s Disease, disordered eating, CrossFit, & adapting a carnivore diet lifestyle. Katie also has over 16 years experience as a Registered Radiologic Technologist, Nutritionist, & Sales Consultant. You can catch her via Instagram @lil_bit_of_fit & blog, Lilbitoffit.com

June 7, 2022

How did you deal with weight gain through the years & transitioning on the carnivore diet?

It all starts with learning to love yourself & disassociating your worth with what you look like. I still have stretch marks, rolls, loose skin, & wrinkles.

My body has been all shapes and sizes! Transformation takes time!

I gained 10lbs when I started CrossFit at 31. I gained 15 when I started carnivore almost 3 yrs ago. Your body is meant to transform

For me, my body acceptance/neutrality started with mourning my own thinner self & my more “athletic” physique when I was training harder. You have to acknowledge & sit with these feelings 1st. Rest is absolutely necessary especially when it comes to healing.
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This was the toughest part of finally reaching my own body acceptance & realizing I was now in a different season of life.

I understand. It’s easy to find yourself romanticizing the times you’re physically at your lowest. Realize that physical low may also mean you’re at a mental low as well.
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My disordered body image, eating, & relationship with self exacerbated with the glorification of my weight loss. It fueled the fire to more disordered behaviors because you crave that validation.

It’s ok to feel all the feels & go thru the wheel of disgust. You have to get to sweet spot of self love regardless of your weight.

Some things I want you remember:

1.) It’s OK to have body goals & want to see what your body can do as long as it comes from a place of self love, not loathing. Make sure you’ve healed any imbalances, done your due diligence to eat enough food to function like a rock star & set yourself up for a successful body goal.

2.) Body positivity & acceptance doesn’t mean you use them as an excuse to eat & treat your body like a trash can. You are what you eat & we were meant to move. You are your habits.

3.) Abs don’t mean you’re healthy & having a few extra rolls don’t mean your unhealthy. We all look different. Chase health first. Choose the diet that works for you. Choose the workouts you love.

Tap for reel: Living at maintenance really is the sweet spot

⁣oxox Coach K

May 13, 2022December 20, 2022

Things you may need to do if you have special diet needs that may come across as rude, but are not

“You know it’s actually rude for you not to eat their food.” or “Oh come on, one won’t hurt you.” 👉🏻Things I used to hear when I was going through my own food battles. Holidays & social functions were the worst.

On the outside we may look fine but on the inside we’re suffering.

I spent decades with food triggers, sensitivities, gut issues, constipation, bloating, G.I. bleeding, unexplained weight gain & disordered eating on top of it all.

I spent way too many years of life with social anxiety, especially challenging when dating or trying to be social.

I’m also a highly sensitive person when it comes to environments, emotions & other peoples’ energies. I like to eat alone.

Maybe you can relate too.

I don’t shame myself for all of these things that make me different anymore.

These are things I do & had to learn to do throughout my journey to be my healthiest. They often times are perceived as being rude for those who don’t understand special digestive needs.

The hard truth is, it’s hard to learn to love yourself for being different. And it sucks being called or thought of as rude. So let’s raise awareness on this!

Tag, save, & share freely via IG! Show this post or use the tips to help others out there who don’t understand or are struggling too💟🌈☀️🥩🥰🙏

Happy Friday y’all!!

Oxox

January 20, 2022

I used to be hungry all the time: what I learned about hunger

Confessions of another dirty bathroom photo…

I ate 63g of carbs yesterday.

I used to be hungry all the time.

I hate sharing my food.

Other things I don’t share are toothbrushes & wieners but those stories probly aren’t IG appropriate & sure to spark conversations that’ll go down the gutter rather quickly.

Been throwin in some 2 a days the last couple weeks on days I have evenings free to experiment. Been craving carbs after my workouts in the evenings, so I honor my body & listen to her. My carbs of choice are rice cakes, easily tracked, portable, & don’t typically cause gut issues in moderation with my Crohn’s disease & autoimmune needs. Quantity varies, I am able to moderate these now. So far so good.

They help me with recovery, lower my cortisol, & help me sleep. Transparently sharing my experiences – go your own way. I stick to meat & eggs for everything else, rice cakes only post workout after an evening WOD with the 5:30 crew. I don’t crave them when I don’t need them. Rest days & days I stick to my morning workouts I don’t want them. Proud of my body & mind for supporting me in intuitive, nurturing ways compared to my self sabotaging self years ago.

Went back to CrossFit & Beats class more regularly. I realized how much more enjoyable & effective my workouts are with community. Being more social was a 2022 intention of mine, Its fed my soul & stoked my hunger in more ways than one & got me thinkin…

I remember being hungry all the time even after a huge meal, I still wanted dessert. I noticed my friends were able to eat smaller portions & be satisfied. I felt ashamed. As I aged & became more self aware, a sense of amazement & awakening crept over me…

Did this mean that the bottomless hunger I felt wasn’t physical hunger after all? Could I sit down at a meal & push away my plate, full & satisfied, without the urge to overeat?

I could, but only after I figured out that I wasn’t only hungry for food. I was hungry for enjoyment & satisfaction, & not just in my belly, but in my whole life.

Somewhere as a kid, between farm chores, playing with My Little Ponies & going on my first diet, I lost track of the idea that I was allowed to enjoy my body, my food, & just being alive. I decided that always feeling hungry & vaguely dissatisfied was part of growing up.

I had to learn the bigger lesson – that hunger isn’t simply about filling our bellies, but about something deeper: a hunger for connection, enjoyment, & love.

From my own experience & awakening of learning to feel full, body & heart, I hope you find ways to satisfy your inner hunger. To be continued in another post at some time, let this be a conversation starter with yourself.

oxox Coach K

January 4, 2022

Lies your disordered eating told you and what you’re really hungry for

I used to crave all the sweets. Could smash an entire pan of brownies, boxes of cereal, gallons of ice cream — & I did in the thick of my binging & disordered eating. Followed by days of guilt, inflammation, pain, & more hunger.⁣

⁣Thank God every day for this carnivore lifestyle. This is an important post, please SWIPE, save tag & share freely with someone who needs to hear it or if it’s a simple reminder for yourself.

We think we crave chocolate, cookies, brownies, & ice cream, but our hunger truly is for somethin much deeper, somethin much more nourishing.⁣

⁣Things like love, significance, fulfillment, & connection are what we really crave.⁣

⁣When we allow ourselves to FEEL & RECEIVE & have these things, it’s far more satisfying than treats, overindulgence, & temporary pleasures.⁣

⁣If you feel constant, ravenous hunger, know you are probly feeling undernourished & unfulfilled in more ways than just food. ⁣

❌Watch your words, they’re powerful!

“Diet starts tomorrow, or Monday, etc”

“I deserve a ‘cheat meal’ or ‘treat’ because I’ve been, ‘good’ all week.”

“I messed up my diet, might as well splurge & start again Monday.”

“If I eat that I’ll need to make sure I workout enough to burn it all off.”

“I’ll be happy when I reach my goal weight.”

“I don’t deserve to eat that, Ima failure.”

“I can’t do that until I lose the weight.”

Look deeper for what you truly need. Maybe its a walk with a friend, a deep convo, GRACE, a hug, doing something nice for someone else just because, or quiet time with God/the Universe/the Collective or whatever you believe.⁣

⠀⁣Without connecting with ourselves, forgiving our past, & getting real honest on the bullsh*t sandwiches we’ve been feeding ourselves & understanding what TRUE nourishment is — we remain unfulfilled & hungry.

⁣If you are feeling disconnected & lost, my door (& DMs) are always open 🚪💌📲⁣

⁣ I have a whole 354 page guide with an entire section dedicated to emotional eating and things to help you. Click below ⬇️

❤️ oxox Coach K⁣

Peace, love, & #meatbars ♨️