My weight gain & disordered eating was impacting my health.
It was a problem I had yet to confront & resolve.
I was a mid-size “woman” at the moment. I could wear a size L at the age of 14. My jeans size was a women’s 16. I weighed 160lbs at barely 5 foot tall.
Despite knowing I needed to lose weight & it was the reason all the kids were mean to me & none of the boys liked me I still hid my binges & ate like garbage. I had a sweet tooth & could throw down gallons of ice cream, & boxes of cereal & cheese nips in one sitting. Then I’d throw it all up & struggle with gut flares for weeks.
Why TF did I do this I thought?
I remember the doctor telling me I needed to lose weight & people would say the annoying, “You’d be the prettiest girl in school if you’d just lose weight.” **Insert eye roll.**
But I knew there was some truth in what they were saying.
My first thought?
I bet I can drop 20 lbs in 2 weeks if I don’t eat & exercise more. I just need to “want it bad enough.”
And I did.
I stayed stuck in those self sabotaging cycles for decades.
Sound familiar?
I don’t have middle gears. It’s nothing, or full throttle!
And that’s how I was with food, alcohol, exercise, mindset, & negative self talk.
Those of you who have read my other blogs might know that I once got so thin that my hair started to fall out. I had fainting spells, low blood pressure, & cervical cancer in my 20s, & I ended up in the ER with a BAC (Blood Alcohol Content) of .346 & on a vent after a night of drinking one time.
You have no idea how badly I needed to hear this to love myself & keep fat loss off forever…SWIPE!
I hope these help you too & are the very things I also teach my clients. [Coaching FAQs in IG bio]
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