I love a glass of Prosecco, laughs, & good conversation.
Sometimes that’s all a girl needs.
I’m an introvert by true nature. Used to feel guilty for it. I recharge in my aloneness, however.
As this fine wine has aged, I find so much peace in being alone. Having a small circle of friends. And I find myself realizing, finally, I am my own best friend.
Being alone used to be a fear for me. I can’t think of a more pressingly painful feeling that cuts deeper than falling into the bottomless pit of loneliness.
Heartbreak is a close second.
My girlfriends & I talked about how as you age you become more comfortable knowing what you want and what you don’t and having no remorse for your feelings, thoughts, needs, & behaviors.
I am so grateful for the shit & numbing I’ve had to wade through to get to this point.
Here is the tricky part about the art of numbing: There is only so long a person can survive off Band-Aids. At some point, you’re going to have to treat the infection — even if it means having to feel the burn when the painkillers start to wear off. The breakdown.
That’s the beauty of the breakdown. When you hit a rock bottom, you’re forced to make a choice. You either die, or you deal with it.
I talked this morning about how the relationship with yourself dictates all of the relationships with everyone else in your life.
In learning to be my own best friend, I found the remedy for loneliness & stillness & mundane. I hope these words can help you.
I encourage you to take the time to get to know yourself. Don’t be afraid to confront all the feels. Don’t apologize for your wants and needs and all the weird shit that makes you, you. Some days even if I really like you I just flat don’t feel like talking to people. And I don’t apologize for that anymore.
No matter how hard or how amazing or how confusing or wonderful or wild life is, you will never be truly alone if you harvest a loving relationship with yourself.
You are the most precious person in the world.
I think I’m funny as hell, I laugh at myself all the time, I have complete conversations with myself.
And if you can do that, you’ll never be alone. ❤️